[ sam catches his urge to correct her - that making peace is not the same thing as being okay. but he's not entirely sure if this is the place, or the time, or if ciri even wants to hear it. he assumes not, and just finds himself nodding and taking a drink.
and ciri's right - there isn't any huge difference. when alina left for thorne, sam had been terrified. worried. stressed. he'd wanted to go after her and he'd wanted to message her and he'd wanted to know. but much like ciri - with enough time he realized he just couldn't focus on only that. alina was an adult, alina had made her choice, and honestly - who was sam to think he was owed anything else?
the idea of the disappearances isn't easier to swallow, not with how little they know of what it means or where they even go, but it's something. and something is better than nothing. the loss of it curls somewhere in sam's chest, mixed with peter, bucky, mal - mal again. he exhales - shaking his head.
this sucks. it really sucks. and sam decides maybe he's just going to let it suck for today. maybe this is just going to be how he processes. ]
She'd have wanted to go with him- wherever it is. So it's good she made it to Thorne before. [ he doesn't quite want to say it, for some reason, so he takes another drink instead. ]
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and ciri's right - there isn't any huge difference. when alina left for thorne, sam had been terrified. worried. stressed. he'd wanted to go after her and he'd wanted to message her and he'd wanted to know. but much like ciri - with enough time he realized he just couldn't focus on only that. alina was an adult, alina had made her choice, and honestly - who was sam to think he was owed anything else?
the idea of the disappearances isn't easier to swallow, not with how little they know of what it means or where they even go, but it's something. and something is better than nothing. the loss of it curls somewhere in sam's chest, mixed with peter, bucky, mal - mal again. he exhales - shaking his head.
this sucks. it really sucks. and sam decides maybe he's just going to let it suck for today. maybe this is just going to be how he processes. ]
She'd have wanted to go with him- wherever it is. So it's good she made it to Thorne before. [ he doesn't quite want to say it, for some reason, so he takes another drink instead. ]