[ he's multitasking! he's being angry, hurt, paranoid, and appreciative, that's multitasking, isn't it?
what he really needs to figure out is how to relate to himself. sam may be angry with him, and sure - he's got justified reasons to be, but he does see him as overall more good than bad, he's pretty sure. zemo - zemo is sussing him out. he can feel the prodding every second of every day. sometimes, it's subtle, sometimes - it's much less so. but that constant prodding, it does mean there's a dilemma there, that he's not convinced either way yet.
so he's got a vote for good, and a vote for undecided. where does his fall? he's done terrible things, but not out of choice. but he did them. and what he's doing now? putting sam's life at risk, busting out zemo, involving sharon again - is this justified evil in the name of good, like he's telling himself, like he's telling sam, or just evil?
what would steve have done, if he were here? ]
No such thing as wizards.
[ the day bucky doesn't lock the door and check for danger, that'd either be the day he gives up on living, or the day he can say he's fully recovered. that day is so far off, that he can't even imagine not doing it. so in this, at least, sam's trust is fully justified.
he even follows him, a silent shadow at his back. ]
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what he really needs to figure out is how to relate to himself. sam may be angry with him, and sure - he's got justified reasons to be, but he does see him as overall more good than bad, he's pretty sure. zemo - zemo is sussing him out. he can feel the prodding every second of every day. sometimes, it's subtle, sometimes - it's much less so. but that constant prodding, it does mean there's a dilemma there, that he's not convinced either way yet.
so he's got a vote for good, and a vote for undecided. where does his fall? he's done terrible things, but not out of choice. but he did them. and what he's doing now? putting sam's life at risk, busting out zemo, involving sharon again - is this justified evil in the name of good, like he's telling himself, like he's telling sam, or just evil?
what would steve have done, if he were here? ]
No such thing as wizards.
[ the day bucky doesn't lock the door and check for danger, that'd either be the day he gives up on living, or the day he can say he's fully recovered. that day is so far off, that he can't even imagine not doing it. so in this, at least, sam's trust is fully justified.
he even follows him, a silent shadow at his back. ]