[ there is a lot there that sam has been working on unpacking, bucky. from the way their first meeting happened, to the fact sam had spent so much of that early time trying to convince steve that bucky wasn't able to be saved. a lot has happened since then, and sam's opinions have shifted drastically, but this, whatever this is, is still forming. he can recognize that, and work with that. still forming is better than nothing, and sam is too invested now.
steve rogers or no, sam could have stopped reaching out months ago. steve rogers or no, sam could have sent bucky home when this mission started and they could have gone their separate ways, just as sam had mentioned in that couples therapy session. no one would have blamed him, if he'd just gone home and focused on the issues he has there.
and yet. here he is. here he wants to be.
right now all sam can think about is the concern he'd had watching bucky earlier that night. the concern that hasn't quite fallen away, even now, back at sharon's. in a place that is technically safe, for now. and sam is patient, so when bucky goes quiet, he waits. lets the quiet sounds of the city below them both fill the space. there's a part of sam that is almost worried to breathe, that he'd break whatever train of thought that bucky is warring with in his own head.
and that's when he speaks, and sam lets himself exhale. s'just a nightmare and sam gets it. he knows what that feels like. and he nods. ]
Do you want to talk about it?
[ because that's what it comes down to - the fact that sam won't push, if bucky really doesn't want to bring it up. he won't force himself into that cyborg brain of his, if he doesn't want the help. but he's also here, also willing to, if he does. ]
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steve rogers or no, sam could have stopped reaching out months ago. steve rogers or no, sam could have sent bucky home when this mission started and they could have gone their separate ways, just as sam had mentioned in that couples therapy session. no one would have blamed him, if he'd just gone home and focused on the issues he has there.
and yet. here he is. here he wants to be.
right now all sam can think about is the concern he'd had watching bucky earlier that night. the concern that hasn't quite fallen away, even now, back at sharon's. in a place that is technically safe, for now. and sam is patient, so when bucky goes quiet, he waits. lets the quiet sounds of the city below them both fill the space. there's a part of sam that is almost worried to breathe, that he'd break whatever train of thought that bucky is warring with in his own head.
and that's when he speaks, and sam lets himself exhale. s'just a nightmare and sam gets it. he knows what that feels like. and he nods. ]
Do you want to talk about it?
[ because that's what it comes down to - the fact that sam won't push, if bucky really doesn't want to bring it up. he won't force himself into that cyborg brain of his, if he doesn't want the help. but he's also here, also willing to, if he does. ]