HIGH FIVE I get so stressed when I have to prose cuz I always screw it up sooner or later.
ME TOO I'm excited for this :D and I'm all caught up, you're good o7
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[ people trying to kill him? absolutely feels normal to bucky. it's everything else that's a struggle. every time he opens his eyes he sees something that reminds him - not that he was ever in any danger of forgetting - that life's gone very wrong, that he's not where he belongs, that he's not who he was supposed to be.
he was supposed to come home, he had a family waiting. twice they were sent letters of condolences. twice, they were lies. and as if it wasn't bad enough, they'd lost steve, too. did anyone bother visiting them? there's no one left to ask. it was his job to take care of them, and he didn't. it was his job to lay down his life for his country - he didn't do that, either.
so what's his job now, and should he even look for one, with his track record?
he can hear sam's approach, and sighs inwardly. like sam, he's not quite sure whether he really wants to have this conversation - or it's the last thing he wants to do. it's one or the other, he can tell that much, but which? well, it's probably not a question he'll have an answer for until he does it, and he's damn good at putting off this conversation. it's real easy, when everyone who's ever really known him is gone. ]
Peachy. [ it would probably be easier if he'd have been a better liar, but the winter soldier was an assassin, not a spy. he didn't really do too much talking. ]
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ME TOO I'm excited for this :D and I'm all caught up, you're good o7
~*~
[ people trying to kill him? absolutely feels normal to bucky. it's everything else that's a struggle. every time he opens his eyes he sees something that reminds him - not that he was ever in any danger of forgetting - that life's gone very wrong, that he's not where he belongs, that he's not who he was supposed to be.
he was supposed to come home, he had a family waiting. twice they were sent letters of condolences. twice, they were lies. and as if it wasn't bad enough, they'd lost steve, too. did anyone bother visiting them? there's no one left to ask. it was his job to take care of them, and he didn't. it was his job to lay down his life for his country - he didn't do that, either.
so what's his job now, and should he even look for one, with his track record?
he can hear sam's approach, and sighs inwardly. like sam, he's not quite sure whether he really wants to have this conversation - or it's the last thing he wants to do. it's one or the other, he can tell that much, but which? well, it's probably not a question he'll have an answer for until he does it, and he's damn good at putting off this conversation. it's real easy, when everyone who's ever really known him is gone. ]
Peachy. [ it would probably be easier if he'd have been a better liar, but the winter soldier was an assassin, not a spy. he didn't really do too much talking. ]