[ his therapist is a perfect example of what happens when you force it. how's he supposed to cooperate when he doesn't have a choice? and what kind of trust can he build with someone who's so very clearly afraid of him?
he'll never say it, but he's grateful to walker for releasing him from that particular prison. the little bits of advice and care that sam drops around him, even when they fight, are worth infinitely more to him than a thousand hours sitting on a couch in a mostly empty, too large, room, being punished every time he doesn't fall in line. he doesn't really know how to ask for what he needs, let alone what he wants, so when it falls in his lap, he's gotta be grateful.
the look bucky gives sam is a full out challenge. go on, say something, I dare you. the thing is, every time he goads sam, and sam doesn't back down? is helping him a hell of a lot. sam can turn his back to him, he can fight with him, he can reject him. and to bucky?
that means sam isn't afraid of him. and he's desperate for that feeling, for that reassurance. ]
Shoddy modern workmanship, I'll fix it in the morning. [ he doesn't for one second believe he's lucky enough not to have woken zemo with that noise, but he's not about to summon him by making any more. he strides over to the sink, fills his glass, and gulps it down. ]
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he'll never say it, but he's grateful to walker for releasing him from that particular prison. the little bits of advice and care that sam drops around him, even when they fight, are worth infinitely more to him than a thousand hours sitting on a couch in a mostly empty, too large, room, being punished every time he doesn't fall in line. he doesn't really know how to ask for what he needs, let alone what he wants, so when it falls in his lap, he's gotta be grateful.
the look bucky gives sam is a full out challenge. go on, say something, I dare you. the thing is, every time he goads sam, and sam doesn't back down? is helping him a hell of a lot. sam can turn his back to him, he can fight with him, he can reject him. and to bucky?
that means sam isn't afraid of him. and he's desperate for that feeling, for that reassurance. ]
Shoddy modern workmanship, I'll fix it in the morning. [ he doesn't for one second believe he's lucky enough not to have woken zemo with that noise, but he's not about to summon him by making any more. he strides over to the sink, fills his glass, and gulps it down. ]